On Wings of a Devil

For past one decade
We have thought about you
Only to come to no end
And continue on with pity for you
Yes you will marry the one
You are meant to marry
And fuck her
But only in the wake of tears
your past lovers have shed
Then you shall burry her
But only in the wake of laughter
That has no sound
Yes, I shall build myself a house
And carry your dead memories into it
I will be a lover and I will be a mother
But I will no longer be your whore
You fascinate me Asima,
To the point that sickens me
I have found my darlings
I have found my destinations
But only to ricochet back to the ones
That do not belong to me anymore
When did I say that I loved you,
and how many times did I say it?
Where was I when you needed me,
and where was my conscious
when you renounced your faith in me?
I may be a conqueror and I may be a martyr
For I have shed my blood on the sheets
That draped your naked body
Yet I remain unworthy of your soul
Tell me how one shall remain an angel
While levitating on wings of a devil?

19-04-06 to 30-05-06